Thanks to all for your recipe ideas. I haven't tried them all yet but I'll keep you updated. I've learned that I don't have a clue of how to saute. Perhaps because we avoid veggies. I'll try steaming next time, Cindy...
I told you I'd fill you in on the initiation of this whole fiasco so here it is...
Mid-June I palpated a one inch lump in my left breast. Since I self inspect monthly, it was a bit disturbing to have such a large lump pop up all of a sudden. I called my doctor and they had me in within three days. The doc sent me for a mammogram and diagnostic ultrasound immediately. The good news was that the lump was very movable and tender-ish. This all pointed to a benign mass. The mammogram couldn't see it, which is evidently a common problem for those of us with "dense" breasts. I'd like to know why I've been irradiating my chest annually if they were unlikely to see anything anyway. A discussion for a different time. The ultrasound was unexciting also so the radiologist/ultrasonographer suggested we watch it and repeat all the tests in 6 months. No way! I wanted the thing out of there. Off to the surgeon I went. Dr. Cetas is AWESOME. She did her evaluation and suggested a biopsy but I insisted I wanted the mass out for histopath so we scheduled it.
Many of you knew I had a week of vacation at the end of July but it wasn't much of a vacation. That is when I had the lump removed. I was very impressed with all the Kaiser staff, including Dr. Cetas. They did an awesome job!
The following week I was in Colorado at a workshop when Dr. Cetas emailed me the bad news. Cancer... "good thing we took it out" she said... but we didn't get it all. An urgent MRI was ordered to check for it's extent. I flew back to Oregon that night and broke the news to my folks. Then I called my son, Tapwe, and told him. He was out camping with my brother. These were difficult and emotional conversations. I don't know if it was harder for or them or me.
The next day I had the MRI. I was a bit stressed, as you might imagine, but Kaiser's technical staff was awesome... again. The results were back within three days. Thankfully there were no obvious signs of cancer cells distant to the original surgical site. Histopath evaluation and dye studies demonstrated a slow growing invasive mass (mitotic index of 1 per 10hpf) that was HER2 neg (not an aggressive form) and hormone-responsive (a good thing). I'll explain that another time.
Whew! This was all good news. The next step is more surgery. Larger mass removal and radiation OR mastectomy and chemo. Difficult and unwelcome decisions to make. I immediately researched the options and talked with 8-10 breast cancer survivors. They were so kind to share their stories with me. What choices they made and why. What negative experiences they had and how they delt with them. One thing was clear. I didn't want to worry about cancer popping up again in the future. Not in the affected breast... or it's buddy. So I decided to have a double mastectomy and completely eliminate the issue... I hope. I'm still not out of the woods. Some cells could have made it into the lymph nodes and beyond. We won't know about this until after the next surgery. Just one long drawn out mystery with a surprise ending... hopefully a happy one.
Then I had to decide on restorative breast reconstruction or not. Another difficult choice. I don't like any of the options: (1) no reconstruction and use prosthetic boobs or go boobless, (2) saline or silicone gel implants under the pecs, (3) microvascular surgery to transpose belly or butt fat to the chest (tummy tuck and/or butt lift). No one in the Portland area does (3) so it's not really an immediate option. The surgeon really encourages reconstruction immediately but I'm just not ready for that right now. I decided to deal with the whole cancer issue first and will pursue reconstruction later... if I'm so inclined.
All of these doctor and procedure appointments have disrupted my schedule in a big way. But it's also disrupted the schedules of many others. All the staff at Frontier Veterinary Hospital have scrambled to reschedule my appointments, all the other docs have covered my shifts while I've been out, and the clients have put up with the inconvenience of it all, as well. I am so grateful for everyone's understanding, patience and support - clients, co-workers, management, friends, and family. Having so many people in my corner has been truly empowering. I know that I'm the one going through all the crap but knowing you are all out there rooting for me makes it seem less daunting. I thank you all for that. As an aside, Frontier Veterinary Hospital is forming a Race for the Cure 'Team Y-dub'. If you're interested in joining our team call 503-648-1643.
Boobectomy surgery is this Friday afternoon. I'm not sure when I'll be up to typing next but I'll post when I can.